FHE

Are you ready to be shocked and awed? Okay, so it's not really that amazing, but for me it is. I actually went to FHE by myself this evening. Not only did I go, but I talked to people and participated. Did I mention, I had fun? For a normal person this would be a whatever moment, but for me it was wonderful. So far, my ward is still looking pretty good.

Just Heard

I was contacted by a former student today via myspace to learn another one of my former students died on Saturday. You know, I thought I would be much older when something like this happened. He was only in 8th grade. It seems so young to be taken from this life. I am not sure what happened only that he died in his sleep. I am not going to question Heavenly Father's reasons, but it is just so sad. I hope his family is coping and his friends are okay. I taught this group of kids for 2 years and I see their faces now and wonder how they will handle this. I hope they can rely on each other.

New Ward

I just went to my new ward. I can't believe it, but I am excited that this is my ward. I was greeted at the door by a girl named Amber. She welcomed me and assured me this was the right ward and seemed genuinely excited I was there, I believe she even clapped a little. I introduced myself to the Relief Society and immediately someone (Heather) behind me tapped my shoulder, said hi and told me she also lives in my complex. I met two other sisters, Megan and Mallory, after Relief Society. In Sacrament meeting Amber came and sat with me and Amanda. I felt very welcomed.

The ward is pretty small, which I think will be nice. Hopefully I will be able to meet more people that way and find a place to fit in. I also think it is a little older of a ward. I am still on the old side, but it seemed to be made up of people in their mid to late 2o's. The girls looked like average wonderful people, not super models. I didn't see many guys, but I did see at least 2 who were pretty cute.

I feel like I have found a place where I can meet people and enjoy the activities. I am being realistic though, I know I will have to put forth effort but I actually want to. I have hope for this ward and that is something I haven't felt out of a singles ward for a few years. Happy, happy, joy, joy!

One Thing

I want to be in love! I don't just want to be in love, I want to be loved back. I want to know that I am capable of feeling that for someone. I just want to be in love!

Vacation is Over

A miracle has occurred, my keys have finally returned from their vacation. I got to work this morning, took off my coat and felt a bulge in my pocket. It was them. I'm not sure where they went but I am glad they have returned. I know I checked all of my pockets in every coat I own, so they must have made it back sometime last night. I refuse to ask them any questions, I am just glad they are home!

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I have to start by saying my life is full of miracles! I moved here to Utah and found an amazing teaching job pretty fast, I somehow survived money wise until my first paycheck, and I just found an apartment. I see all of these wonderful things around me and I feel my Heavenly Father's love yet why do I still feel sad? Why is that seeing the goodness in my life isn't enough to make rainbows? I feel like it should be enough and I pretend it is just so people won't see me.

Lost

My keys seem to have gone on vacation. They must have gotten bored with life (and who can blame them?) and jumped ship. They have been gone for a few days now. I hope they are having fun because I'm not. I mean I have a spare key, but I was bonded with the other set. I was just thinking, I bet they went to visit Mom's keys who are also taking a little break. I am pleading for their return. Keys, I need you! I am lost without you, please come back to me.