Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Zone Therapy

Yesterday, with my momita's help, I took my health into my own hands and saw a reflexologist. For those of you who don't know it is a type therapy based on the belief all parts of the body are connected through the feet. I really didn't know what to expect other than some touching of the feet. It was one of the most painful experiences of my life. I didn't realize my feet could feel such agony.

Aside from the pain it was a really amazing experience. As she was working different parts of my foot she would bring up parts of the body and what she was learning. I was really hoping she would find something because I feel sick all the time. However, I didn't expect her to find some many things wrong with me. As I listened to what she had to say, I couldn't help but feel grateful I can function as well as I do.

I know this all sounds a little crazy, but she knew things about my health that I hadn't told her. She could tell by my feet I had had braces, problems with my digestive system, anxiety, my blood type, that I clench my jaw, and I have a good memory but I have been having problems concentrating and remembering things. I don't think I have even told anyone about that. It really was amazing. Here is another weird thing. She only touched my feet, but my whole body is sore today. I feel like I worked out for hours yesterday and I know I didn't. She did something and I really don't know how she did it.

Anyways, the point of all of this is I finally feel like someone is listening to me. It is such a relief to know I am not going crazy. I feel like my medical doctors aren't listening and don't really believe me because nothing shows on any test. It was such an amazing experience and I am so happy to finally meet someone who wants to help me get better. Doctor

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Annoyed

I am so annoyed right now! The sad thing is I am annoyed with the one person I can't get away from, myself. I am so tired of the same thoughts, emotions, answers, and life. I feel like there is a record player in my head that has some how gotten stuck. The same words keep repeating over and over again. I am now so sick of those words it is driving me crazy. I tell myself don't think about that and I get even more bothered because I tell myself that all of the time. Life!