Hamlet

For my birthday I got some money.  I had planned to buy some shoes or a new purse with the money, but alas, my many searches were in vain.  I decided instead to spend the money on my love of movies.  So far I have purchased two but I still have money to purchase a few more.  I am very excited, especially since the two I ordered ("That Thing You Do!", Kenneth Branagh's "Hamlet") have already arrived. 

It is the second movie, Hamlet, that has prompted this post.  I had a friend who once insisted that Mel Gibson's Hamlet was the best.  Sure it is good, but it in no way compares to Kenneth Branagh's version.  It is truly spectacular.  I feel Shakespeare would be pleased to view his work acted in such splendor.  While watching, I have a desire to re-read the play so that in my imagination can run wild with Danish princes, vengeance, ghosts, friendship, and love.  I do feel that my dreams would pale in comparison with the vision I see before me now.

I highly recommend it and would let anyone borrow it.  Just know it is very precious to me and won't be held responsible for my actions should anything happen to it.

Change

I think my whole life has been spent trying to be what others expect me to be.  I find I don't say what I really think in case that might alter someones perception of me.  I keep my opinions to myself to avoid arguments.  I apologize for things I am not even sure I should apologize for to make peace when I reality I am the one hurting.  I wonder who I would be if I hadn't trained myself to be this person.  I guess the question really is, do I let myself be free of this facade and let the bricks fall where they may or do I hang on to what I know and find peace in the place I have created? 

I have recently been contemplating change.  I feel there is so much of myself that needs to change, but I don't know how.  I don't want to be stuck in this rut.  It seems to be a vicious cycle filled with the same thoughts and actions.  I know change is hard, but I know I must.  I think change brings growth and perspective, which I am in desperate need of.  I feel like a 30 year old stuck with a high school mentality when I really want to be 30 flirty and thriving.  So how do I get there?